I was then determined to end my storied of what is happening in my life.

But after some whomps (not literally, though) and encouragements, I felt rejuvenated.

I had my time of thinking of what should be and not of what is there.

I was so  absorbed with depression and felt exhausted of living things in a negative perspective.

Did some thinking and praying. And now, the negativity part life should be brushed aside.

Now, I am a new person. I decide to be better and make things the best I can.

I decide to spread happy hormones. Happy energy. Happy thoughts.

As what would my bestfriend tell me, Happy Thoughts Only.

There may be stories of the  improbable, but there will always be a good thing that would result out of it.

And we call it, the Moral Lesson of the Story.

And with finality, I can say ” Cherry Topped Life is now Signing On Again”..

Most of us need to be an expert in one aspect of this so as to show our loved one that we are strong. We need to not be ourselves in dire times of crisis. In these times, we need to appear strong to those who are weak. We need to be the shoulder to cry on, when we ourselves need to burst our hearts out.

On what we show, we appear ungrateful to our family. But inspite and despite of this, we continue to act as an ungrateful family member. We continue the show. We continue to be the protagonist, but deep inside we are breaking down. That we find someplace at some time to be alone and cry our hearts our. And our witnesses are just walls, our shadows and Him. And after we cry, we get back to the stage and act again.

But I ask, are we ungrateful with what we show or are we just trying to be their source of strength?

wait… wait..

years.. years…

until reaching almost a decade of waiting…

still waiting…..

This may not the most well-expended, but this is the most celebrated time of the year. For one, it is the Lord’s birthday. Also, it is a surprise reunion for our family.  Aside from dinner with my dad’s side, mom’s sisters came all the way to Davao to surprise her on her 60th birthday on the 28th. Also on the 31st, we went to the beach with the whole family. It was really quite a blast…

It has been a long time since we gathered together for a special occasion. This is the time when there were exchange of stories, went busy with the preparations and had dinner. Though the time is quite limited, but the catching up was fruitful for all of us.  We were able to bring them to Eden Nature Park, Jack’s Ridge and some known food establishments.

For this year’s celebration, I can say ” this is one Christmaxx!”

I just finished reading the Twilight story, and now i’m into New Moon. I am so engrossed with the story that i can no longer afford to be disturbed. I even have thought of buying an I-Touch phone so that i can bring the story with me anywhere, considering i don’t really find the technology useful to me…

I even find myself dreaming over Edward (not really the actor who portrayed in the movie). I even, somewhat, feel what Bella feels. I felt those “butterflies in the stomach” at every mushy lines Edward utters to Bella. Sigh. I even wanted to have someone like him, less the vampire-tye of being. Pathetic. Dreaming. Hoping.  Sigh.

So much for dreaming. Back to Reality. Need to take my bath now, bestfriend’s here to fetch me to go to my friend’s house. I guess I have to postpone drooling over Edward for now.

the  family is good.. the heart is way better (the love, it’ll come soon! haha!!)… the life is so much good… and that makes me feel good everyday… oh, the career… the career is quite stagnant for now… but i’m still in a comfortable zone…  probably, sooner or later i’ll push myself if i feel i’m getting rusted… but as of now, still good…

afterall, the now is important for the tomorrow… i’m building everything today… so tomorrow will be stronger, brighter, happier and fulfilling…

Positivity. It brings good things to us. It brings happy memories and attracts what we really want. We should always say the good things. We should say, ” I will arrive on time” or ” I will be treated with respect”. We should always think of positive, which changes our outlook in life. We should see the positive side and attract positive energies to us. Remember, everything were created good. The Creator never created negative things in this world.

I know it is hard since we are used to saying “I don’t”, but trying won’t make any harm at all. Maybe it will really work. But for sure, it makes us see the best things in life. It changes us to feel and be aware that the best things are based on our outlook in life. Let us be in the state of POSITIVITY!

I miss the Sundays when you’d sit beside me during dinner.

I miss the times when I can see you at the couch, lying around and watching tv.

I miss the times when I can drag you to come with me to the mall to buy silly stuffs.

I miss the times when we plan to watch movies.

I just miss my little brother.

You are no longer the little brother that I know.

You have spread your wings way to far, that I can no longer reach you.

And it’s the thought that saddens me, the makes me weep when I go to sleep.

It’s the thought that you have forgotten to be a brother, a son, a friend, and just you to us.

I let you explore the world for you to learn things.  But please be cautious in everything you do. For maybe one day, you might realize you have dug a hole. A hole too deep that you can no longer climb up and save yourself.

Just don’t go too far, for maybe one day, you’ll have a hard time looking for us. But no matter what happens, you’ll always be my little brother.

I miss you little brother.  Just come back anytime.

People make up stories for the purpose of gaining someone’s trust or just would want to make the “victim” the worst person created on earth. Some would want to destroy a relationship for the mere purpose of getting the attention and promote their well-being. Do you get what i mean? haay.. damn those poeple.

But what should the victim do? Let them be. It is not always their time. Like the saying, “If you get things that fast, you will also lose it that fast”, so don’t worry of those insecure irrelevant creatures. You know your worth. Those “wannabe-authors”won’t even be worth your time, effort and worries. Just hang in tight, an solution will come. You may not realize it, someone’s doing something. Just hang in tight. (wink)